My Need For Introspection

I AM

Why Introspection?

Why not simply write about myself. How I have been three years after stroke, and how i think my life should be lived henceforth. Why do a self-introspection? 

First, WHAT is self-introspection? 

Google referred me to Wikipedia and let me just quote its 6 simple definitions . "Introspection is the examination of one's own conscious thoughts and feelings.^[1] In psychology the process of introspection relies exclusively on observation of one's mental state, while in a spiritual context it may refer to the examination of one's soul. Introspection is closely related to human self-reflection and is contrasted with external observation.

Introspection generally provides a privileged access to our own mental states,^[2] not mediated by other sources of knowledge, so that individual experience of the mind is unique. Introspection can determine any number of mental states including: sensory, bodily, cognitive, emotional and so forth.^[3]

Introspection has been a subject of philosophical discussion for thousands of years. The philosopher Plato asked, "…why should we not calmly and patiently review our own thoughts, and thoroughly examine and see what these appearances in us really are?"^[4][5] While introspection is applicable to many facets of philosophical thought it is perhaps best known for its role in epistemology, in this context introspection is often compared with perception, reason, memory, and testimony as a source of knowledge.^[6] "

^{If this is so, then in my quest to be the best me that i can be, it is quite apparent that INTROSPECTION should be my starting point.} 

On the first day of my Lenten Journey, i can't help but ask, did i just experience a "divine intervention"? Was I directly LED to this path?

Divine or otherwise, I KNOW, and now acknowledge, that i was directed to take the path of introspection. Starting today, i journey INTO ME to meet the thoughts i tend to avoid... ignore... deny... mask... or USE to avoid, ignore, deny and mask MY ISSUES. To tackle the hard questions so that once and for all, my slate is totally blank. Like a virgin canvass, prepared for a master-piece. 

To lay bare MYSELF raw for ME to fully understand who I AM. 

And so my Lenten Journey begins...